So I am trying to get better on staying up with my blog, since my original purpose was to use it as a journal.
Yesterday, actually the few last weeks....months, year I have been feeling down. I have suffered big time from depression since Mary was born and hate having to be on medication for it and feeling abnormal. But yesterday I asked Steve to give me a blessing. I was praying that it would give me the comfort and peace I needed to hear to know I wasn't crazy...and of course it did. I was told I was loved by many, that I had a lot on my plate right now, and that a lot was expected from me but if I continued to help my spiritual, physical and mental grow that I would be blessed. I was also told to realize it is ok to take time out to find a hobby and that I would be supported by my husband and family to do it. I think that is what I needed to hear. Sometimes, especially lately I feel as though I give and give for everyone that I am too tired for myself. So today I am setting goals...I want to exercise almost everyday(even if that means just going for a walk around the neighborhood), I want to find out a hobby that I love to do and make sure I have time to do it(right now sewing comes to mind), I want to have more time to study my scriptures, I want to spend more time playing with the kids and building their confidence, I want to get on a cleaning schedule so my home is cleaner, and most of all I want to spend less time in front of the Computer and TV. Hopefully I can follow through with these goals so that I will find that normalness and happiness that I have missed the past year and a half. I know I am truly blessed, but I miss my self being truly happy, not fake happy...Here's to a new start!
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Those sound like excellent goals! I think it is very important for you to have some "me" time. And you're right, you do a TON for others.
I am trying to get healthier (I say this on Halloween after I've eaten a bunch of candy). But I've been wanting to get serious about weight loss for awhile but so many road blocks have come up (health issues, pain etc) and I've been so stressed about so many other things (job, etc) it got put on the back burner. But last week it finally just clicked in my head, that there are so many things we can't control; but I can control what I eat and how much I exercise, and at least I can feel better about myself and life in that aspect. And I'm going to start there.
So, you may not be able to control your health problems or the way you feel, but you can control the way you spend your time, and hopefully it includes more Adrienne time. And if you ever need a workout buddy, I'm game
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