Meltdown, but saved by 2 heroes

So the last couple of weeks have been really hard sitting through sacrament without any help from Steve or Jeanette (because of her foot surgery) or any other family members (MaryAnn usually sits with us, but we both decided to put her son with my boys would be even a far worse situation. :).  So the last few weeks I have struggled with all 5 kids sitting through sacrament without having too many fights, too many kids yelling, and trying to keep them reverent...not even expecting to get anything out of sacrament, and hoping to get something out of sunday school and relief society. So a few weeks ago my 2 youngest boys started fist fighting in the middle of sacrament and of course the usual loud talking from my kids.  Then last week the angel Lauren came and sat with me because I had an extra kid from the bishops family because her mom needed to take care of the baby, and things seemed to be pretty calm overall...and I thought I am getting the hang of this, as long as Lauren is near by.  Then yesterday happened.  Byron and Emily were talking and laughing nonstop and playing, and doing anything they could to keep from paying attention despite my pleas to help me.  Then Benny was mad because he couldn't draw with his pen and the stencil.  Then Tyson was poking the bench with his pen and drawing on it and not the paper.  Sarah was super tired and fussy.  Tyson had a meltdown with the sacrament cup because I wouldn't let him keep it.  Then he had a meltdown because he wanted Steve.  Then he had a meltdown because he couldn't put his feet up on the bench back in front of us.  Then he had a meltdown because I wouldn't hold him because I was trying to put Sarah to sleep...and all of this happened before the Choir number...and as Tyson was laying in the middle of the aisle almost tripping several older people walking up to the choir, and I was trying to drag him away from the area while holding Sarah while she was screaming...I looked at Steve (who was watching, and he was presiding in the meeting, and looking at me wishing he could help) and then it happened I started sobbing.  I had lost it, I couldn't do it anymore, and then Tyson started crying because he had made me sad, so I sat there snuggling him and Sarah and crying.  I looked at Steve again, who was wishing he could do something.  And then when I thought I give up I am just packing up and leaving and going home for the day, two angels came to my rescue...Matt & Conner.  They came and sat with the kids, each one taking 2 kids, so I could put Sarah to sleep.  They sat with the remaining 20 minutes of the meeting and then took my kids to their class, they helped me clean up the mess, and then checked on me to make sure I was ok...they were amazing.  (Apparently Steve had sent a note to Matt to help me out and he quickly grabbed Conner and came over).  These two boys are just amazing young men that I look up to so much.  Last Sunday after the super bowl they stayed and cleaned my entire kitchen and the rest of the mess left from the party.  They stopped by 2 weeks ago to drop off flowers to me from their stake activity to wish me a happy anniversary one day early.  They come over to the church when we are there with the kids to play ball, and they humor our kids and play with them at the same time.  These young men not only serve me, but so many others in the ward.  They are always early to church to set up the sacrament, and then attend all their meetings with smiles on their faces.  They go and visit those who are sick or are in need whenever they need it.  These two young men have not only become heroes in my children's eyes, but in mine also.  I will always be grateful to them for what they did yesterday...they saved me in more ways then they know....just when I thought there was no hope or reason to come back to sit in sacrament meeting by myself...they brought hope to me to realize that my Heavenly Father loves me enough to put angels in my life to help me and remind me that he truly loves me, and that many others do to.  I am grateful to my Heavenly Father, to a loving husband who was inspired on how to help me, and to two young heroes who have helped me and inspired me in so many ways.