The knowledge I lack

So I have never been one of those people who could quote scriptures off the top of my head. If I am planning on using scriptures to help me, I have to study a lot of them for the specific event coming up and then I can quote them. Even in high school and college, I would read a verse and think wow that is a great verse and I would think it meant one thing, but then in a classroom setting everyone else would come up with these brilliant interpretations of that same scripture and I would be amazed, and wonder if I was reading the same verse as them. I remember sitting in my college religion courses and being amazed as the professors or other students expounded on the scriptures...because I never seemed to see it in the same light. And I can remember going to EFY's and feeling the same way, that these speakers were amazing people and I wonder how they became so knowledgeable.

Well I had that same experience last night. Steve is student teaching for the Seminary program, and we had a training last night(everything with this job deals with both Steve and I...so all the trainings I also attend, which is awesome!) . I sat there listening to the people around me, the teacher up front and sat there with my mouth wide open just absorbing everything they said. I sat there looking at the scriptures thinking...where did they get that from...are my scriptures missing a section? Then talking with Steve afterwards, he said that is why he likes these trainings, because he gets the chance to see the scriptures in other people's eyes and can learn and grow from it.

Now when I was Stake YW President, there were times things would come out of my mouth to help comfort someone, or to fix a situation, or to make a big decision, and especially when I was giving a talk to the girls or leaders. And then afterwards I would wonder where those words had come from, and who was saying them because I knew they were not from me. I remember different situations that I would know exactly what to say or how to handle a situation, and I knew it was the Lord speaking through me. Sometimes I am just amazed at how with each calling I hold...whether it be with the youth, as a Sunday School Teacher, as a mom, or even as a friend, that if I have a prayer in my heart the Lord blesses me with what to say to inspire and help whoever I am with...and especially myself.

I am grateful for a Heavenly Father who loves me enough to be patient with me, and whispers in my mind and heart the words of wisdom I need to share at the right time. I am grateful to be living at this time when the gospel has been restored to the Earth, and to be a part of it. I am grateful to the 14 year old Joseph Smith and how much faith he had that if he asked, Heavenly Father would answer him. And I am grateful to friends like all of you who are always there for me to encourage me, love my family and me, and to just be the best friends in the world. And I am grateful to have 4 beautiful children, and a wonderful husband who love me unconditionally. I don't know where I would be without the gospel in my life, and other wonderful church members who I can always learn from. I am grateful to have the Book of Mormon, Doctrine and Covenants, Pearl of Great Price and the Holy Bible to read daily and learn even more from it each time I read them. And most of all I am grateful to my savior Jesus Christ for suffering for me and loving me no matter what. In the name of Jesus Christ amen.